Sunday, 22 January 2012

Positive Thinking

Well the time has come for positive thinking to take place!

I have taken two books out of the library on how to think positively and how to make the right choices in life. Basically telling me what I already knew but it drives the point home.

Got my UCAS letter now i'm just waiting for the universities to get back in touch with me, Fingers crossed and all that jazz. Still waiting to send my RADA and LAMDA applications off but like I said i'm waiting until last minute.

Well being back in London started badly but i'm slowly getting used to it again. Realised its the better place to be again, but i'm hoping to up sticks and leave the family home soon. Big challenge with no money but i'm determined.

Making new friends is the target these next few months. Most of the friendships I had in Barrow have turned sour so a new lease of life and friends is in order! Maybe that will give me a new spring in my step.

I think I will try and find some local drama society or choir and join. I miss the groups.

Anyway apart from having no friends and hating most of my family, life is actually OK! I'm becoming more positive about myself and in the long term if selfish is what I become its what I must become....


Tuesday, 17 January 2012

Back in London

Well after a month and a half I'm back in London city...

I was excited, but getting here to find I no longer have a bedroom, a duvet or a life sort of put a downer on things.
Decided I perhaps NEED to find a job as I am on the bones of my arse money wise at the moment. And this is another factor restricting me from doing things in and around London.
I was hoping that I may have had a few Christmas cards here but I was sadly mistaken. Got one off my Grandad and that's the extent of it.

Anyway enough of the depressing rant, I'm back in London for a reason and that is to get my acting career back on track and hopefully find somewhere to live of my own.

Leaving my current boyfriend in the north was the most difficult task. As my family do not provide much support he is the only one I can count on, which when looked at retrospectively is not the ideal situation. But in the most simple of terms, I miss him.

Hopefully now I have applied for UCAS as well as RADA and LAMDA I will feel safer having a back up plan for the future because things aren't moving fast enough for me.

Anyway its my mothers birthday today and I thought we might have gone out for a meal or something but as usual she has gone off with her friends into the city centre and left me to look after my sister. Personal babysitter.

Well all I can say is I hope this downward spiral shoots upwards at some point.

Goodbye for now.  

Monday, 9 January 2012


Well , I've been neglecting this blog for sometime and it needs some attention!

Not much has happened really, apart from me being really into photography at the moment.
Whilst being in a little town surrounded by countryside its always a perfect time to take pictures.
So I went to a local forest and spent a good couple of hours there taking some pictures of the beautiful world we live in ! Not appreciated as much as it should be of course.

Also having this month to reflect on my life has put me in the same mind set I was a few months ago which is I need to get my career moving... I need to do things that keep me going each day and get me motivated enough to get up and GO.

Auditions are coming up for drama school and I am, well, scared to say the least!
Preparation still needs to be done and confidence still needs to be built but hopefully that will come soon..

RADA and LAMDA are the two I am auditioning for which happen to be the most prestigious two in London, I don't seem to aim low... but if I am rejected I have no idea what I will do, I am not prepared for that outcome and am not looking forward to it....

Positive attitudes need to remain, for example



hope has to remain somewhere !

Anyway back to London I go next Monday, to start again properly this time!

Ciao for now!

Tuesday, 3 January 2012

The new year

Well , the new year has finally arrived and has sort of lifted my spirits somewhat....
Still the same routine remains for now but determination is afoot!
How hard it is to get into the acting business needs to be at the back of my mind not the front...Just my love of acting should remain at the forefront of my mind! Practice Practice Practice!

Set the aims, meet them!

Anyway my new year was okay but could have been better, the need to go out and party has completely gone out of the window, drink just does not interest me. I'm 19 this should not be happening yet! Never mind I still enjoyed myself and enjoyed the company.

Back to London soon, back to reality.

Ciao for now.