Friendship

Hello again, it has been ages (again)..

But I feel like it's time for another rant...

Basically I am 20 years old and I frankly lack in friends, the ones I did have were in my home town and ever since I have moved most of them have not kept in touch or barely made an effort, which is kind of understandable.

I have tried my hardest to make friends at my University, and I do have friends there, but I suppose I'm just selfish as I want a good friend...no a GREAT friend who will come and see me when I need them, will support me/ moan with me/ shop with me/ party with me, is that really too much to ask ?  Obviously it is.

Well whether I am the most likeable person in the world is a different question entirely, at the moment I have a rather negative outlook on life- I'm hoping for change. But this change never seems to come. I am still living with my mother/sister and boyfriend, which is a terrible situation to be in. But when we tried to move out recently we were met by the challenge of finding a guarantor and frankly no-one would or could be one for me- hooray.

I have lots of essays due which I should be doing right now, but instead I choose to write and moan about my life...oh yeh that's why I have no friends.

Anyway, if you seem to have the same problems or know the secret to making best friends, lemme know!

Bye for now!

It has been...a long time

Hiii!

I know it has been some time since my last blog post on this blog...

My apologies, I have been busy (I swear..) I have created another blog on beauty/fashion along with my other about acting. I had fun designing it! Might have to tweak this one a bit now.

Check it out if you wish (If not just  for the design work) !: http://stylisticwoman.blogspot.co.uk/

Well I am in my second semester of University, and today was my first day. Didn't go fantastically I must say. Had a International relations lecture with an Canadian man who I couldn't hear and sounded like a robot (you know Steven Hawkins that kind of thing)... Then that was followed by a woman in my seminar who was possibly one of the most boring/wet people I have had the privilege to be taught by. Then the same old English lectures that, I can deal with!!

However, University has improved since my last post about it, I now have friends...I know it's weird, but I must accept I can have social interactions with people now. Real people.

My course is improving slowly, more information, less, well little bits of useless paperwork. However, I already miss my old tutors, I miss the ramblings of my old politics tutor (he was french and old and very passionate about EVERYTHING to do with politics) and my old International Relations tutor, he was passionate too, and liked to discuss! But I still have my old English tutor, I call him Steven Fry 2, he knows everything, and he knows he knows everything. 

I am still looking for a place to live, unsuccessful so far, the only one I rang up about and wanted to view went the day I was going to see it. Bad luck. I have no money, that is a BIG issue when looking at places, after all, I am just a humble student. 

Another thing, I now exercise pretty regularly and have just started Shaun T's beach insanity workout. Insane is definitely what it is. But it makes me feel good when I have achieved the finishing line. I am aiming high, I want a nice toned stomach, some non flabby thighs/arms, is that really too much to ask? If only God had been kinder to me...

HA, like I believe that, I make my own fate, and hopefully I  can change my body shape!!

Erm, what else....

I'm trying my best not to spend money... telling myself I am not allowed to buy myself any new clothes/accessories..It's hard. Little treats cheer me up. But I will strive on and hopefully by the end I will have more money !!

My hair is changing colours again...it was lilac but it washed out...after one day. So it is now blonde, but hopefully that will change AGAIN tomorrow when I use a Lavender hair dye. We will see, it doesn't seem to like my hair. 

I probably have a lot more I could say, but for now I think that may be enough...

Well good night for now, and like I always seem to say... See you soon!

(Maybe)

(Probably)

(Maybe not too soon) 

Bye for now!! 

Is it right to criticise? or moan?

Moaning.

A word I have heard a lot recently.

Have I been moaning too much?

Is life really as hard as I make it out to be?

Whatever anybody tells me, however much I annoy people... LIFE IS HARD.

My list of problems currently;
1) No money, literally NO MONEY, I am living off credit.
2) The university I am at is lacking, lacking in passionate teachers, lacking in resources, just lacking.
3) I am lacking motivation- I want to write, but I keep changing my mind on what I want to write!!Arrgghhh!
4) I still live with my mother and sister.
5) These are all holding me back.

But of course I must balance this out with the positives....

1) I have a wonderful boyfriend.
2) I am healthy/alive...(to an extent)
3) I'm not homeless?

wow.

Well anyway, looks like I am the moany bugger everyone makes me out to be, but wouldn't you be moaning?

On the upside, I am liking the idea of being the next Tina Fey, writing some fantastic sitcoms or just editing them. I am feeling it combines my acting dream and my writing dream...
But I must get my arse into gearrr!

I suppose feeling sorry for my situation will get me absolutely nowhere...

Back to the 'thesis', I also criticise people a lot, whether we realise it or not we all judge other people. I shouldn't, such things as;

"She has a manly face"
" Eugh that outfit"
"Personally not my taste..." etc.

I suppose that's my womenly side coming out, it doesn't come out often, and I can see why...

Anyway, it has been a while since I blogged and it needed a kick start.
I will be blogging more and maybe posting some ideas up, I would like to know what you think etc.

And if anyone out there ever meets me here is a fair warning that I am a moany miserable so and so !!!

ha

Ciao Ciao!!

University, The start of the journey...

I know it has been some time AGAIN since I have posted but I have honestly been so busy.

Starting uni I naively thought that we would be eased in nice and slowly...get some explanations, expectations of what the tutors want etc.

No.

Clearly that is too much to ask.

Thrown in right at the deep end, asked to complete multiple worksheets, read tons of books and understand every single thing I read in so much depth my head is bound to explode.
As you may know my background is somewhat a mixture of academics and performing arts, mostly focusing recently on acting and performing.
You may also know I decided to change all that and go straight into academics again. I thought I was ready to handle it after a gap year, I thought I was ready for a pile of work and books. In some ways I was right, If I had gone straight from A-level to University I think I would have torn all my hair out by now.

The problem isn't really the worksheets, or even the reading, its having to analyse everything critically, having to know what the authors thinking, or what the difference between liberals views on ideology compared to conservative views.
And the most guidance they give you is; Well what do you think?
I have told you what I think! now help me put it into a comprehensible sentence/thesis/paragraph!

You have to be 10-20 steps ahead of everything that's happening. You need to know what's coming up in 2 weeks time and read LOTS for it.

One last rant, HOW and I mean this in all sincerity HOW do people manage to drink/stay up late/socialise as much as they do AND keep up with coursework/essays? They must be gods.

Anyway, amongst all that hate, I am actually getting used to the demanding work schedule and reading, however I want to get ahead of the game and I am finding that hard.

I think I may just start a literature blog, I think it would help me keep up to date and give some in depth analysis on some of my thoughts.

I am sure I will get into the swing of things soon, but of course being a student other matters are prominent like money/travel/friends?/ food. ha.

Anyway, I will let you all know when my new blog is out etc.

Have a good day! God knows I need some motivation right now ( I have a cold also, not helping)

CIAO BAMBINO/BAMBINAS!

Starting University

On the 17th of September I started my journey towards a degree.
It was induction week at Kingston University, got to admit, it was fairly boring.

But during the week I had a long think about what it is I want to do. I love drama, music and the arts. But am I the right person to be taking on a career like this?
No was the conclusion I came too.

I love acting, I love singing and being there in the limelight. But how often will that happen being in that career, thousands maybe millions of people want to pursue a career in acting/singing and I am not ready to be in those thousands. I am not saying I am 'giving up', far from it. When/If my passion comes to the forefront of my life I will go out there and attack any audition I can get. Until then my logic has taken over and I decided to change my degree course entirely...

Instead of Drama and Politics I have decided to go for English Literature and Politics. My love of writing has come at a later age because the pressure has been lifted of NEEDING to write, and it comes to WANTING to write.

I know at degree level the pressure will be back on, and this time tripled in amount but I am up for the challenge!
Saying it now the gap year I took was well needed, I didn't rush into anything and now I have had a look back at myself I know I needed a safety net.

However, whatever your dream is I suggest if you have that passion/drive for the subject or career, for god sake do not waste it and go for it. Even if you think its impossible, in my life time of nearly 20 years if I have learnt anything it is that nothings impossible!

For god sake I'm nothing special and I have sung in English National Opera, been in a TV advert, had multiple retail jobs the most recent being Buckingham Palace, written and review for the Royal Albert Hall and now I am going to university to study English Literature when I didn't even take it at A-level!
I think as the saying goes 'The proof is in the pudding' !

Onto another issue, one of my big worries about starting university was making friends...
As I am not living in halls or near the campus this is going to be a difficult situation for myself.
However, I have met a couple of people in my Politics class that are 'my cup of tea' as people say. They have a high level of intelligence, are that little bit older and respect learning.
Hopefully I can keep up with social aspects as well as learning but I know that will be a challenge.

I am one of those people who acts differently with different company or in different situations. So if people are having fun, I will. If people are studying I will get in that mind set so on and so forth.

Anyway, to wrap things up I can not wait to extend my knowledge of literature and English vocabulary. Maybe one day I will be in the publishing business (here's hoping!)

Like I always say I love opinions and comments..

Leave one!

Ciao for now. 

My review has been published!

The review I blogged earlier has now been officially published on the Albert Hall website, it has been shortened a tad but who cares!

http://life.royalalberthall.com/2012/09/prom-75-review/

Check it outtttttt!


Officially been published ;)

Feel a sense a accomplishment!

CIAO

The BBC Proms

Well the other day I actually won a competition...
It was the review the BBC Proms, cool I know! haha

But anyway I thought I would post the finished article on here as well for you to give your opinions and thoughts :)

My Royal night at the BBC Proms

Last Friday (The 7th of September) was mine and my partner’s first trip to ‘The Royal Albert Hall’ to see the BBC Proms.

In fact, to be more specific it was Prom 75: The Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra performing Haydn’s symphony number 107 and Strauss’s Alpine symphony.

On arrival to the hall I was lost for words, approaching this vast beauty of architecture. The dome shaped building with all its grandeur was utterly breath taking. We entered the main entrance to collect our tickets, and then headed to our seats. All of the staff were extremely friendly and well mannered.

Entering the hall was again an experience in itself, the hall was illuminated with coloured lights and decorative banners which told us we certainly had arrived at the proms.

The tension of pre-performance wasn’t a long one as we sat down and discussed the beauty of our surroundings the lights dimmed and the orchestra appeared from the side of the stage.

They were welcomed of course with a warm round of applause and then were seated ready to tune up and begin. The conductor Bernard Haitink entered with grace and poise well prepared to start Haydn’s last ever symphony entitled ‘London’; Quite fitting for the location! The air began to fill with a slow simple melody which slowly injected its way around the circular hall. The tension of the piece slowly built with crescendos and healthy harmonies slowly arising. The mellow vibrancy and simple melodic phrases only found in classical works such as Haydn or of course Mozart. This was 30 minutes of mellow music with a string dominated orchestra just characteristic of the classical period, which I think is just charming. At the end the orchestra were again welcomed by a colossal round of applause, which was well deserved.

The lights arose and the interval began, we decided to take a wonder around the halls and admire the pictures of celebrities who have played in this wondrous hall. We then headed to get a bottle of water which took a while because of the queues, and then returned for the second half.

As we walked in the setting of the stage had changed to accommodate the full orchestra needed for a Strauss Symphony.

The same round of applause was used to greet them once more and we began. The mood had definitely changed as we have moved on through music history into the late romantic period. The full orchestra took us out of our seats and astounded us. The addition of the wind and percussion section just added a fuller sound in which everyone could appreciate. These 50 minutes of Strauss told a story and the ups and downs kept me seduced the whole way through.

When the whole event was finished the orchestra was met by astronomical applause and admiration for their superb playing. In fact this caused the conductor to go on and off stage several times and then to my surprise an encore was played!

Such a fantastic night and reminded me that the sophistication and regal atmosphere is why the Royal albert hall remains one of the top music venues.

It certainly put the ‘Royal’ into the Albert hall.

Written by Sophie Ogden

There it is for you, hope you enjoy it!

Also here are a few pics I took;

Me and the boyfriend looking smart!

 I know I haven't blogged in a while, I will do soon and I am starting University so might have a few bits to write about!

BYE!